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I just want to hear from someone :(

Post By: Jamie

Message:

First- My dad had back surgery and will
never be the same. We can't ski, scuba
dive, or do any of the activites we used
to.
Second- My mom's stroke at 46 followed
by the diagnoses of a blood disorder
that I have
Third- (I lived with my maternal
gparents till I was 11 and am extremly
close to them) My maternal Grandfather
got diagnosed with Bone Cancer
Forth- Receive a phone call that his
bones have started to break.... 2 days
later my grandmother on the other side's
femur just broke for no reason
Forth- My maternal Grandmother is
diagnosed with pancratic cancer and
metatastic liver cancer.
5- I don't know what to do anymore, I
just turned 21 and my entire life is
being taken from me. I was such a
rebelious and bratty child moving 900
miles away from home at 17 to get away
from all these people. And when I
finanly realize what they mean to me,
they are being taken. I just don't know
how to feel or what to do anymore.

I went to college at 16 and am about to
graduate, that is if i go next semester.
I kept telling my mom that I wanted to
help out my grandparents and do whatever
I could in their last months. She told
me if they needed help she would quit
her job, and I should stay in school and
graduate. But with my mom's blood
disorder she can't quit her job because
then she would lose healthcare. Then
she visited for thanksgiving and saw how
quickly my grandparents were
deteriorating, and said that they were
gunna take me up on my offer to help and
I should leave school. This decision
was between every family member except
my grandparents. When I told them that I
was leaving school they laid a guilt
trip pretty thick, ending in 'we would
like to see a grandchild graduate before
we die. '
They are the most important people in
the world to me. They are smart,
succesful, motivated and amazing in
everyway. I want to learn as much as I
can from them, and spend as much time as
I can while they are still themselves.
But thats not their wishes and I don't
know what to do. I am so lost in
everyway, I can't even cry, I just don't
remeber how to. And I don't want to
talk to my family about this because i
don't want to upset them

Reply By: Lou

Message:

wow u really have it rough.  Is there

anyway you can stay in school but

transfer to be closer to your family?

Reply By: Jamie

Message:

Thanx for your response lou.  I haven't 

been online since now.  Today we went 

to the oncologist and she has 3 months 

max.  Even the oncologist said there is 

nothing we can do.  I don't know exactly 

what Im looking for being on this site or 

what Im doing on a day to day basis.  I 

have since moved in with them.  But it 

just was nice to hear that someone else 

cared, especially since I have alienated 

myself from all of the wonderful people I 

have in my life.  I guess I just feel that 

no one from my day to day life could 

ever possibly say anything that would 

matter.  But your comment did.  Thank-

you, and assuming that you have your 

own stuff going on which is why you are 

on this site, I wish that you can stay 

strong.  -jamie

Reply By: Kaitlyn

Message:

Oh my gosh i am sorry to herre how 

rough your life is. I just want you to 

know that me and my entire youth 

group at church are praying for you! I 

wish there is something i could do to 

help you. I would say try to keep to 

keep positive but i can guess its pretty 

hard to do that in ur situation. I will keep 

checking this message so if u wanna talk 

to me keep writing.

Reply By: sivan

Message:

that sucks doesnt even begin to cover it.

my dad just got diagnosed with a rare 

form of cancer and i also just dropped 

out of college to move back home and 

be with my family. i understand the guilt 

trip and the feelings of alienation. if you 

want to talk, lemme know, we can email.

thinking of you...

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Maggie, 13

When I was 9 years old my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. My feelings ranged from sad to confused to hopeful. My feelings don't matter- all that matters is that my mother lives a faith-filled life and the holy spirit heals her.

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