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	I Never Said Goodbye Post By: Ashtin
	Message:	On November 4, 2006 my Nannie Dottie passed away from lung cancer that spread throughout her whole entire body. We all watched her fade away. I can't remember what she sounded like before the cancer effected her voice. She sounded hoarse and always coughed and lost her beautiful white bouncy hair. I was 13 when she died, and I never said goodbye. I wasn't expecting it. I was at a school dance the night before on a friday. My mom called my cell phone and asked me if I wanted to stay over her house and see her. I said no and I went home because I wanted to go on the computer. The next morning the phone rings and I knew what happened. She tied in the morning right after my relatives from Tennessee arrived for the holiday. I fell like I betrayed her because I didn't want to see her like she was. Her left breast was swollen because of the cancer and there was a tubes all over her body. She taught me so much over the years that I could never learned on my own. Cancer Really Sucks. I always thought she would get over it. She didn't. She died at home...and when I saw her being carried out in a bodybag. I lost it. I feel like I miss her more than anyone. Our family is falling apart without her...and so is my Pop-Pop. She died the day before their 50th wedding Anniversary and to set things off we recieved something in the mail from her for Christmas. It was a christmas tree ornimant that read, "Although I'm not with you now. Don't cry for me, I no longer feel pain. Jesus opened his arms for me and took it all away. I love you all, Merry Christmas." I may not have her with me right now...but I can't wait to hug her again. To smell her perfume and to run my hand over her soft wrinkles on her hand to hear her say I love you without that scratchy voice.